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sticks of dynamite
taped and rigged to an alarm clock,
that nine-pound jagged rock,
the sheaf of white-hot needles, etc.
I shall continue to move.
And I know now, too, how—when I leap
a bottomless gash in the earth—how to calculate
for it growing wider while I’m in the air.
And a clinician, a mental
health professional,
asked me why I liked rivers!
Ode to Those Who Study the Miasmas
Praise all who wade into the swamp, rubber pants
up to their waists, anti-
venom in a vial around their necks,
each with a pencil, a machete.
The pencil for notes—what went wrong
here, there, everywhere.
You know what the machete does.
The miasmatists try to find the root
beginning at the end
of where the root reaches.
They sometimes die doing this: passing out food
to the starving, the line so long
they starve before it ends.
They try to understand the world’s malice.
Why one man smells a stink on another.
Why a man (his grandfather before him,
his son to succeed him) pie-charts
the decades, the centuries, of blood feud.
The miasmatists stab a microscope into a living louse
to count the lice that will emerge
from its next deposit. They burn
to minimize the returns.
They’ll dive into the swamp, too, if they must,
lead around their waists.
They’re trying to find out some truths they don’t
want to know.
It’s need that decides how deep they dive.
They’re trying to find out where not to go,
so later we can go there, or we can hide.
Praise them.
Ode to the River That Abandons One Channel and Finds Another More Suited to Its Purpose
The river goes where it needs, its nose, its lead waters
assigned the task of sniffing a faster way
to the nearest salty sea. It turned hard right, around
instead of past Apple Hill,
then a lazy logical left into our valley of cowbells.
It took first our church
where the aged and the children sheltered, singing.
The rest of us were filling sandbags.
The river removed much, and killed.
A river goes as a river needs to go.
The town bank was gone, though its vault
still stood, atilt. Most of us
believed in the Lord—two boys
were found alive the next day floating on church pews
a mile at sea! We knew
enough not to take it personal: the river followed laws
we understood. Pour a bucket of water
on dry ground and watch it go
where it goes. Some of the drowned
were found. We built new houses
on the new riverbanks
and our abandoned riverbed
became, seen from space
(we saw pictures),
a long, pale line by day,
a deep, black slash at night.
Ode to Asa Bundy Sheffey,
which was Robert Hayden’s birth name,
reduced from three trochees to two.
It was a family issue,
his unhappy mother giving him
to unhappy neighbors, the Haydens,
who raised him, and called him Robert Hayden,
though they never bothered
to make it legal. From time to time,
he’d see his blood parents—in a blur, his eyes so bad
he never knew what they looked like,
nor even what he himself looked like,
without his glasses, which
were so thick sometimes sight got lost
inside them. Might he have left,
or found, some poems in those dense lenses?
An austere militant
of reticence: Robert Hayden Asa Bundy Sheffey.
Permissionless, I’m adding three more tumbling trochees,
making five in a row, to inject into your name
even more velocity. They’re all I can give you,
in gratitude for some truths
you left, in deep-set ink, on the page.
Ode to the Archipelagoes of Discarded Chewing Gum on Sidewalks
As one who’s walked head-down for miles on city streets,
I’ve come to see them as if from an airplane
over Pacific chains
of atolls. Black as cooled lava, hard, flat,
they are not islands risen
from the sea but dropped from the sky.
They sink into concrete and cling.
They become another substance altogether.
Happy spring after a winter under snow, ice.
They lie too low for the shovel’s scrape.
It doesn’t matter if each island gets no shade
in summer’s furnace: they do not soften.
Discourtesies, of course, each delivered by a big god.
Each bears the DNA of its creator,
who’s probably gone by now,
drowned when, greedy, he overloaded his canoe
with yucca and breadfruit,
and went down
between Funafuti and Vaitupu.
Ode to Scars
The scars on humans’ faces draw me to them.
I wear none significant on my face,
though a six-inch welt is on my chest
where it was opened
and closed four decades ago.
A student in my office once: small white quarter-moon
on her lower right cheek.
In the institutional light
it was a pearl in three-quarter eclipse.
Praise her scar, for she earned it.
Praise the man whose forehead fell on his shovel
before he finished digging his own grave.
Another man shot him, thinking
it was deep enough. It wasn’t.
He who shot him hanged.
Praise the scar there unrisen.
Praise the scar parting my friend’s crewcut hairline.
A blink deeper into the circular saw
he leaned over . . . ?
Praise the scar like little railroad tracks
up the back of one friend’s head,
and whatever minute scars—on the child,
her mother, and my friend—the surgeons left
when they worked to bring my friends’ child to the world.
Praise all scars, which, by definition, reveal
that something, one thing, one
thing minimum, is healed.
Ode to Lichen
. . . caresses / Too lichen-faithful from too wide a breast.
—Hart Crane
Gray, olive, blue-green, fusty white, scabrous,
glued to rocks and trees, this flora of farthest north,
of so far south there’s nothing to attach to
but ice and penguins.
This venerable life form
will not grow on ice
nor penguins. It’s a fungus,
inside of which live algae.
Stubborn, cleaved to trees,
to tundra, gravestones, slag heaps.
It’s been determined: It could live in space!
The air alone provides food, rain.
It takes nothing from that on which it lives.
It helps stone turn back to soil
so slowly the stone doesn’t notice,
and it feeds a few creatures
in hard years: reindeer, and the larvae
of my favorite butterfly, the Common Footman.
Let us praise their benefactor, lichen!
Let us raise that which lies so low,
let us include it in encomiums,
and let us not forget
lichen’s inclusiveness, its understory,
nor its gray-green ubiquity.
III
A Man’s Little Heart’s Short Fever Fit
Poor as a dog. Poor as owl scat tufted
with mouse fur and a chipmunk’s hip-
bone. Poor as a louse without a valise.
He liked the deepest caves,
the getting to the bottom of them
(the deepest, about seven miles down, ending
in a not-so-square three yards of packed sand),
and he liked better: climbing out.
It was harder climbing out: up, up, up,
poor as a punched bus
ticket, poor as a poorhouse evictee,
poor as a hole drilled in dust.
Did I say he liked the deepest caves?
Small caves breathe, middle caves sing,
the deepest caves roar.
He liked the deepest caves.
Did I say he loved the abseiling, abseiling down,
and the inch-by-inch rock climber’s winch
up, up to the cave’s agape mouth?
Did I say what, and whom, he loved
(and he did love what and whom),
even when he made a failure of it?
There’s a Word for It
When it rains on a dry garden, there’s a word
for the smell that results.
The word is not aromatherapy,
not to my ear.
The oily essence released is.
A word made from stone and the blood of gods,
if gods have blood.
It’s not a tasty word, not a word first for the mouth.
Not for my mouth.
I loved the smell. I lived in a house
surrounded by cornfields.
We needed the rain and we were glad
for the silage it provided,
but no one ever said: Smell that!
No one ever said: Note the ozone notes,
the hint of cedar, the whiff of fresh grass stains.
Someone did say: Corn’ll stand up stiffer tomorrow.
I’m grateful there’s a word for it,
even though the theorists said language can’t
be trusted. Oh where, oh where did the theorists go?
I think I know.
I’m very happy
to learn there’s a word for it,
though I’ll never write it
nor ever say it aloud.
I will take it in my nose, gulpfuls
with my lungs,
until the former ceases to sniff
and the latter fly away
over low brown hills.
Blue with Collapse
The devil’s in my neck.
Everything I hear is overviolined,
even the wind, even the wind.
It’s like walking in nurdles up to my chest,
squeaky and slow.
It’s spring, the blooming branches
nearly hide the many dead ones.
A squirrel, digging for a nut, upends my frail
tomato plant and fails
to replant it, even though he has the tools.
I find this kind of squirrely oblivion everywhere.
I was a man filled to the top
of my spine, filled to the lump
on the back of my head, with hope.
Then I read a few thousand history books.
Little, and nothing, perturbs me now.
Even the beheadings, even the giant meat hooks
in the sky, more frequent each day,
bother me not
a tittle, not a jot.
Praisegod Barebones
I’m taking this name: Praisegod Barebones,
the pseudonym of a long-dead preacher.
Why? I, too, have an impulse to praise,
am unambivalent about God,
and bare bones, unless
they are burned, is the way it will be.
I like the bang, bang, bang, bang
of those four syllables in a row.
What would my friends call me—Boney?
Boney, don’t you know me?
I’m taking the name because
It’s difficult not to write satire.
Juvenal wrote the above, in Latin.
Look it up, you can do that easy now
and not need to climb a library’s high ladder
to haul down a creaking book
like I did when I was Tommy Lux,
who is gone now, absorbed
into PGBB, who is like a good verb that absorbs,
and therefore makes superfluous,
its adverb.
Attila the Hun Meets Pope Leo I
I doubt it went well
for the Pope. There was horse sweat and saddle smell,
there were hungry men, unsated and sated,
the acrid of blood on iron,
a thousand cooking fires
roasting the roastable. Who translated?
Scribes were present. Attila smashed
his wine cup on the table, splashing
the Pope’s cassock.
Attila, that night,
polished his boots with it,
the Pope weeping in an oubliette.
I’d rather think of another Attila: Attila József,
the great Hungarian poet.
He was teased as a schoolboy about his given name.
For most of his life, if he had milk
in his coffee and someone else did not, he felt guilt.
Attila followed by József
lives before Attila followed by the Hun.
And so I wish it to be for my daughter, or son,
and as well with their daughters and sons.
Along the Trail of Your Vertebral Spine
—Jenny
Starting near the top,
I part the shades of your hair
above your nape and there
it is: C4, the spine doctors call it.
I call it First Cairn,
and dedicate it to the promised
rains. Next stop is T2,
often compared to the oasis
of Al Taif, known for its sweet water and dates.